MY EXPENSIVE TEARS

I wouldn't shy from the fact that I love the rain that helps me in hiding the expensive tears in my eyes, I can't thank my darkroom enough that do house my pains each time I go to my room to put my head on my bed with my eyes flooded with tears.  I really wish I had known the table could turn to the other side, I would have jealously held to those words that were said by my late Father: he said, son, nothing last forever, always prepared for that.

If I had known my past deeds without caution would give birth to those tears that are expensive in my eyes right now, I would have ordered my life with the principle of check and balance.  So many times, I wish I could stop my brain from connecting to the romance of my mind that do trigger those sleeping memories of the past.

Those tears I shed when I lost the office suite on my body, the corporate shoes on my legs, the fatness of my account are all truly expensive tears and they have brought me a great lesson that can not be forgotten by me in this world.

I remember those times I moved like I got the whole world at my fingertips,those times I would be calling"Next Customer" while sitting like a king inside my cubicle, those times I would fly my jacket to the other side of my shoulders and move like am richer than Dangote of this world but it was a pity because I never saw the coming of an arrow that gave me a big hit.

Had it been, it was possible for me to play every scene of my future with a remote control placed in my hands from the beginning of the journey of my life, I would have known things that were ahead of me in the future. I wouldn't have spent lavishly the way I did, I wouldn't have lived life the way I lived it, I would have ordered my life so well on the mysteries of his words.

Now, I journey on in life with those expensive tears in my eyes that have truly brought me a great lesson that would be cherished by me till eternity. 

I really don't know your position in life but I have come to advise you to guide your life so jealously well with the scriptures. I wish my pain could be felt through my writings so that the whole world can know how badly I feel each time I reflect on the memories of the past.  

Now I have lost every damn thing I had and left with nothing but a single room and TV to lean on like expensive gold, I have learned and promised myself to be more disciplined when everything goes back to normal.

The tears are truly expensive because each time I want to fall in the same pit I fell in the past, the memories came to play me a song of remembrance that has been guiding me to overcome every storm of life.

If I had understood the clicking of the clock, I would have known how to honor the principles of time in life.

I wish I could bring back those good times with my own bare hands but I couldn't , I wish my account could go fat as it was in the past, trust me this time, I promise to save more this time and spend less, I wish I could visit the motherless babies home with gifts and different packages,I wish I could have much and bless lives without waiting for a thank you message from anyone,there are many lessons that have learned that are transforming me into becoming a better person.

I hold the pen with the tears in my eyes to write you, to inform the lives of those that really need to be informed when you still have the chance to do that, the abundance of life is given by God, not by anybody.

I had experienced failed relationships, heartbreaks from lover,fun mismanagement and misplacement of priority and these have birthed me tears that are expensive that will be cherished by me till eternity.

I am here crying silently in my room for the return of those moments when I would sit like a king, walk like a prince and dance like the happiest person on earth. 

If the tears in your eyes have truly cost you a lot, I beseech you to live a life that is ordered with the principles of his words.  You need to put down those old and ugly practices of yours and hold on to the ones that are right.

Be determined and be focused.

I love you...